Wednesday 18 February 2009

I feel the need to put out a post

So im sitting in my dorm room, and the thunder has just started to sound, a tornado warning is in place and for some reason im not in the least bit worried.


Instead of being worried about the storm in hand im more worried about the fact that i havnt wrote on my blog for over a month now( i think)
Im considering all that i have done over the past month and on one hand i have done a good deal, i have been to chicago for a weekend, i have visited my friends down in auburn, i have enjoyed good friendships and yet when i try to put it all into words i struggle. im not entirely sure why.
(the lightning has started and the rain is bucketing down)
Chicago for instance was one of the most fun weekends i have had in a long time, its such a great city i loved it so much, but how can you put it into words when the words you use do not match that of your experience. maybe i just dont have a way with words the way that so many other people do, who knows.

I do realise this does not make a bit of sense but i have been wanting to update this for a while but just felt that i had no inspiration, nothing to write about even though i blatantly had.
maybe i need to read more, to pray more, to be in silence more, to let myself think more instead of filling my brain with meaningless rubbish. There really should not be a maybe in that previous sentence because i know i need more of all those things in my life, we all do. Sometimes they just feel so hard to obtain that we give up too easily and go back to the mundane. I dont want that anymore, i dont want to waste my life with nothingness.